Contentment

I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. Phillippians 4:12 NIV

If you get to the point of "following" this blog, I will bet you will see this TITLE on many of my Blogs!!! I think I fall into the temptation of discontent on MANY occasions!!!

I sometimes wonder if I have Adult ADHD? I can't seem to stay focused on anything long and I always seem to crave change, although I know if I could have change all of the time I probably wouldn't like it! It is easy to say I want to move to a different state and start over when I know that my husband isn't the type to do that. It is easy to dream and be safe at the same time!

I know that the real true answer to it is to be patient and rest on the Lord's word to be steadfast in prayer...I know all of those things...but, I seem to fall short on that and still seem to have too many moments at thinking my WANTS are important. No, they are not my NEEDS, so they are NOT important. I fall into the "it's not fair" and "selfish" category too many times!

I think too often I look at other people and think, how can they have such a cushy life...why does God grant them the lifestyle that is so much better than I have? I am slowly learning (never too late to teach an OLD DOG new tricks) that what you see on the outside is very rarely what it is like on the inside. I am truly learning this. It is just taking longer to teach myself not to fall into the old habit of envy.

I have caught myself from time to time thinking "I only have one life" just like 'Jane' over there and I have this life and she got that one! Oh, Lord....when I get past the poor me stage I imagine the LORD sitting up there looking down on me with his head in his hands and shaking his head back and forth thinking...she just isn't getting it! I give her all the material and she just doesn't retain it! Yah, Lord...it's ME, I know, it's NOT you!

I need to be content...I have a WARM and cozy house. It doesn't leak and it is warm and filled with the people that I LOVE! The outside needs siding...but, just like that marriage or lifestyle that seems so pretty on the outide....it's not what it seems. Take away that old siding and it is nice inside. Warm and pretty, comfortable and cozy. The type that you want to entertain in and everyone can just come in and snuggle up and chat for hours!

My Mother-In-Law has always said it is not the HOUSE that is a HOME it's what is inside (the love of family). I love my Mother-In-Law. We are blessed we got the HOME!

I have a marriage that is happy, maybe not alway so exciting...but, from my friends that have had exciting marriages...they usually didn't last...divorce reared it's ugly head. We got ROCK SOLID, neither one of us is going anywhere...we may wish from time to time...but, we chose this...we committed!

Yes, I need to be content...I am married, I have someone to come home to that knows me more than ANYONE on Earth, someone who doesn't judge me when I am my heaviest or my grumpiest! Someone who listens to me and I can have intelligent conversation with as well as stupid. Someone who shares in the fact that WE have three healthy boys, something that I can't share with one other person on Earth! We are able to cloth our family, feed our family, keep them warm...why wouldn't I be content???

All I NEED is the LORD and my FAMILY, that's contentment!